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want to come home. Because no matter where I went, Denver was always home. You were always
home.
Is that really the case? Because I have no idea what you were doing the entire time you were
gone.
And you never asked. Yeah, it hurt that Jake hadn t asked. And, apparently, Border was going
to be a dick about that.
Jake threw up his hands and scowled. I ve been a little busy dealing with my own shit life at the
moment, thank you.
Border shook his head. Shit life? I don t see a shit life. I see a man with a fucking fantastic
family, a man with a job and a home he loves. I mean, fuck, you can work from home, and I ve seen
your art. He gestured around the house. I ve seen it here, and out and about. You re talented, and
you always have been. Yeah, Holly dumped you, but you told me yourself you were done with her.
It s not that simple! Jake yelled.
It never is, but hell, Jake. Make it was it is, not what you think you need it to be. You re not
pissed off because you and Holly aren t together anymore. You re pissed you didn t get to do it.
You re broken up because she s the one that did it first.
Fuck you, Border. You don t know me. You don t know what I m feeling.
Border leaned forward. And whose fault is that? Whose fault is it that I don t know the man you
are now?
Yours, you fucking asshole. Yours. Jake straightened. You re the one who left. You re the one
that decided I wasn t good enough. So don t get all butt hurt over the fact that you don t know me
now.
He d stepped into that one for sure. That s not what I meant.
Yeah, well, it s what you said. I wasn t good enough. I wasn t a chick. You didn t want to really
be fucking me, you just wanted to get your rocks off and call it a day. I get it. But don t act like you
did nothing wrong. Don t act like you have a place in my life now.
Jake s chest heaved, and Border wanted to punch his pretty face for saying all the right things
even though they were all wrong.
Oh, shut the fuck up. I didn t leave because you were a dude. I left because I fell in love with
you, you prick. I left because I might have been twenty, but I wasn t a man yet. My dad would have
killed you if he d found out. You get that, right? He would have killed you because he wasn t able to
kill me, even though he sure as hell tired. If he hadn t killed himself thanks to the booze, he d still be
trying. I left because I didn t know who I was without that man trying to beat me down, and that
wasn t a man worthy enough of you. So, yeah, I left. I did it a shit way, and I can t take that back, but
I m here now, and you can t seem to face the fact that I am.
Jake took a step back, his eyes wide. We were adults, Border. He couldn t have touched us.
You know how he was, so don t lie to yourself. And, Jake? You never said anything. You never
told me what you felt. For all I knew, I was in love with you and you just liked fucking me to make the
women we were with hot for us. I. Didn t. Know.
Jake paused for so long, Border was afraid he d fucked up again. I& I didn t know either. I m
bisexual, Border. I m not afraid of the label.
Border let out a breath and closed his eyes. I m bisexual, too. We were young and stupid and
didn t know what we were doing. We re older now, but I still don t think we know what we re
doing.
I thought I did, Jake said simply. I thought I was figuring it out, at least. I had a job, a home,
and a girl I thought I could marry.
You didn t love her, Jake, and we both know it. Holly knew it.
Jake s jaw clenched. So she said.
She also said something about Maya. He needed to meet this woman; the one that actually held
Jake s heart and not the one Jake had thought would be good enough. Because there was something
there, something Border needed to deal with. There was something in the back of his mind, an idea he
couldn t quite grasp when it came to the three of them, but he needed to figure it out.
Shut your mouth about Maya. You don t know her. You don t understand.
You want her, Jake. I can see it when you say her name.
She s my best friend, Jake bit out.
And I don t doubt she is, but you want her.
Jake growled, And you re saying I want you, too? Is that what you re saying?
Border tilted his head. Do you?
Fuck you, Border. You can t come here and change who I am. You can t just mess everything
up.
Things seemed to be falling apart already without me. He was being an asshole, he knew it.
But if he didn t force Jake to face his thoughts and fears, there would be no moving on.
Fuck. You.
The fist to the jaw shouldn t have surprised Border, but it did. His head shot back, and he
winced, rubbing a hand over his chin where Jake had punched him.
Feel better? Border asked. He ran his tongue over his teeth to check if any had come loose.
The damn man could hit hard.
Jake shook out his hand. No. Your jaw is like granite.
Border snorted. Not so much, but thanks.
I don t know what the hell I m doing here, Jake said after a moment. And you being here isn t
helping.
Something kicked Border in the chest, but he did his best not to show it. You want me to go? I
can. But I m not leaving the city. We need to talk.
I thought we just did, Jake snapped. What the hell do you want, Border?
You, he bit out then wanted to hit himself. Well, now there was no going back, even if he d
fucked it all up. I want you, Jake.
Jake went pale for a moment, and Border held back a sigh. Not the best reaction he could have
hoped for when he told the man he wanted his feelings.
I don t know what I want, Border, Jake whispered. I& it s been a long time.
Border stood straight and moved toward the edge of the counter so he could give Jake some
space. I see. And he did. He d been gone too long, and he d fucked up.
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